This Is What Freedom Feels Like

Reaping the rewards of the work previously done

Blessings to you, radiant being 💜 💜

I trust, as always, that this post finds you in Divine health, peace, joy, harmony, and abundance.

Today, I would like to share an excerpt from what I wrote in my journal this morning. I think it so beautifully illustrates why we are doing this inner work to set us free, and why we are so wise to stick with it, even through the challenging times that we are moved through from now and then.

The excerpt has been slightly edited to honor the integrity of others, but I wanted to share it to emphasize how this winding path of and to freedom can be.

We move through spaces that are challenging, and we move through spaces that are pure joy.

But all of it is for the edification of our souls. All of it is for our Highest Good.

And there is always a way out. As long as we keep moving forward, we will emerge on the other side.

The sun will rise once more.

Journal Entry

I haven’t felt this relaxed and content in many, many years.

It’s like for the first time perhaps since I and … first met, I feel no need or desire to get somewhere other than right here and now.

Yes, I am moving forward, but actually and honestly, I do not mind being where I am. I don’t mind freelancing, I don’t mind living in an apartment, I don’t mind any of the things I currently have in life.

Because I can both feel and see that things are moving.

As opposed to before we left for Spain, where I felt stuck, imprisoned, and when I desperately needed to get out, to break free.

Now I feel free. I am not just desperately treading water just to stay afloat, above the surface. But I am actually moving forward.

Not just running around in circles.

Like, today, when I am having this day off. Sure, there are things that I want to do, and some things that I need to do - but nothing I feel I have to do.

I remember before when there was always that next thing I needed to do, that next thing that needed to be recorded, that needed to be edited, that needed to be…

And now, it’s like, Yes, I can do it, but do I want to? I can do it, but will I do it?

It’s like all sense of urgency has been dissolved. Before I was running, running, running - partly to get to where I wanted to get. Partly to get away from where I was.

Now, I don’t feel the need to run. I am not in a hurry to get anywhere, nor do I feel the need to get away from anything.

I am perfectly happy being where I am, patiently and calmly participating in the unfolding of that which is now happening.

Life truly is good. And I am not just saying it, but I truly feel it.

I am truly grateful that I get to be where I am.

Background

As some of you may know, my family and I moved to Spain last summer, and while there were actually a number of reasons as to why we made the decision to move, for me personally, moving was absolutely necessary to get away from the life I was leading.

Having been the sole financial provider for our family for many years, I had been working way too much and for way too long to make sure that we were able to live a good life.

I was constantly working, and yet, no matter how much I worked, there was always that sense that I needed to do more. That what I did, was not ever near enough.

I felt as though I was trapped in a sprint without a finish line. I felt as though I was constantly running, and still never seemed to move forward.

I was both running to get away from the life I was living, and at the same time, I was running to get to the life I wanted.

I was so under the aegis of the belief that “If I don’t do it, it is not going to get done”.

That was my core belief, and so I was so caught up in the doing, doing, doing, that I never felt fully rested or restored.

It was this, what felt like an endless experience, that prompted me to catch the intention to Live a Simple, Peaceful, and Quiet Life - Unbound by Time and Place, that has been my guiding light for a number of years now.

Obviously, as that sense of lack and separation (the lack of the life I wanted, and the sense that it was somewhere outside of me, in some future moment) was my predominant feeling tone, the Universe could not help but perpetuate and multiply that very experience.

And even though I was aware of this, I could not find it within me to fully change my state and vibration while being in the midst of the experience.

Which is why it was so important for me to get a clean and definite break from it all, which the move to Spain provided.

The experience in Spain was almost completely diametrically opposite.

As living in Spain is much cheaper than here in Sweden, for that whole year, we were pretty much able to live off of my passive income, and so I did not have to work at all while down there.

I pretty much had nothing to do at all but just be.

I took my daughter to school in the morning, and I picked her up in the afternoon. I had three weekly Zoom meetings, but other than that, there was hardly anything on my calendar for that whole year.

I pretty much could do whatever I wanted to do, whenever I wanted to do it, which was such a wonderful and healing experience for me.

As I believe I have shared before, that experience gave me a direct experience of the intention to live that simple, peaceful, and quiet life.

Before Spain, these were mere words, an intention, but I didn’t really know what they meant. I had no personal experience of the intention - it was simply something I had caught intellectually and cultivated as a feeling tone.

But now, having had that beautiful experience in Spain (which obviously brought its own set of challenges), I now know what it means to live that intention.

I now know what that life feels like. I now know what it looks like.

Pain Pushes Until A Vision Begins To Pull Us

And so, as we are now back here in Sweden, having had that experience, I now have something tangible and real to help me navigate.

I know what to look for, I know where to turn my attention. I know what to choose.

Basically, I now know what it feels like to live that simple, peaceful, and quiet life - unbound by time and place.

And even though the first two to three months here were rather intense and, to a degree, uncertain, as the journal entry from this morning articulated, I am now finding myself in a space of calm.

Perhaps for the first time in many, many years, I am now able to live by the affirmation: Relax and Rejoice.

I feel relaxed in a way I can’t remember feeling in a long, long time. I am not in a hurry to get anywhere, nor am I feeling stressed to get “there” as soon as possible.

The belief that I need to make it happen that used to be so dominant in my mind and life, is all but dissolved.

Just earlier this morning, I found myself sitting on the kitchen floor playing with our puppy, thinking that if nothing ever changes in my life, I would be fully happy and content with life as it is now.

I know that things are changing. I know that transformation is happening. That the next iteration of me and my life is emerging.

I feel it deeply within, and I see it clearly in the external world. But that sensation of being happy and content with life as it is right now - it is very new to me.

And the funny thing is that with the Sacred Laws, it is this feeling tone of All being Well, Now, that allows for the manifestation to happen with the most ease and grace.

When there is no resistance, when there is no fighting against our circumstances, no trying to get anywhere or trying to make something happen, that’s when we are the most open and available to allow for that which is happening to happen. With the greatest ease and grace.

Like a seed in nature.

The seed has no resistance toward any stage of its unfolding. It fully embraces and allows all that is to be as it is. And therefore, the unfolding happens beautifully and effortlessly.

And so, in a sense, while my life’s experience prior to moving to Spain, pushed me into the necessity to begin to move in a different direction, my resistance toward that which was, and my almost desperate need to have a different life experience, actually checked and delayed the demonstration of that possibility.

I had locked on to that possibility, but my strenuous efforts (emerging from the sense of separation) to have that possibility demonstrate had me working against the Sacred Laws.

The Sacred Laws have no care as to whether we turn our attention toward what we wish to experience or don’t wish to experience. All they reflect back is the coagulation of whatever we predominantly turn our attention to.

The more we turn our attention toward what we don’t wish to experience, the more of that experience will be reflected in our lives and vice versa.

And I was having most of my attention turned toward what I didn’t want to experience. I resisted it, and I held on to (secret and silent) judgments and complaints around my current life experience.

I am not judging myself for anything that has been in my life. I know that I did the very best I knew how to do with who I was and where I was.

And hadn’t it been for that particular experience of so wanting to get away from the life I lead, I would not have been so determined to midwife the beautiful life that is now emerging.

It is like that statement: Pain pushes us until a vision begins to pull us. Well, I was both pushed and pulled.

Perfect Preparation And Unfolding Are Always Happening

And so, as I am now able to take on a higher vantage point and gradually begin to see the connection between these two chapters and almost opposite experiences (before Spain and in Spain), the Divine design and perfect unfolding become so clear to me.

I know that the preparation and unfolding started long before I can even recognize, including all the experiences and events that came even long before my wife and me even ever met, but it is truly beautiful, and it truly allows me to be able to see, actually see, the perfect preparation and unfolding that has taken place these last 15-20 years.

And the beauty of it all is that while I had the notion and belief that I needed to make it all happen, the truth is, I made none of it happen.

I participated in it, I flowed with life - sometimes trying to fight against it, and sometimes more flowing with it.

But, despite my illusions that I had to make it happen, and that I was actually making it happen, in reality, I did not make anything happen.

Nor did I plan it, or design it.

And this is how Spirit works.

Always moving us toward greater and grander expressions of who and what we are. Always moving us toward a fuller expression of life.

Of itself.

Eternally moving us into different experiences to help us become more and more clear on the good we wish to experience, on the beautiful life we want to live.

So that we, to a greater and greater degree, may begin to articulate and describe that good. And thus may begin to call it forth from within.

And our part in it all is mainly to participate and enjoy the ride to the best of our ability. Holding fast to our visions, dreams, and intentions, without trying to make or force them into fruition.

I was actually asked recently how to do just that, and I am still in the process of writing that particular post, because it truly is an art.

It is one of the Pillars of Freedom: Unconditional Trust & Surrender, and in my experience, one of the most difficult lessons to learn - how to surrender to and participate in the unfolding without trying to manipulate, coerce, and force it.

We are always being invited to grow, unfold, and expand.

To build stronger and stronger spiritual, mental, and emotional muscles. That we may articulate our visions, stay on course toward them while staying in higher and higher frequencies of joy, gratitude, and celebration.

Regardless of our current external conditions and circumstances.

This is what we are all here to do.

Not necessarily to make a big splash in the world, but to live the most beautiful life that we can ever live, according to our heart’s unique desires.

Invitation

The invitation for us in this moment is to revisit and reinchant the Big dream, vision, or intention we have for our lives.

What does the life we want to live look like?

What is the good we wish to experience?

And once we are able to articulate and describe that good, we are invited to turn within and seek to become aware of any sense of judgments, complaints, fears, or excuses we may be holding on to or buying into where the demonstration of that good is concerned.

Where are we vibrationally checking and delaying the manifestation of that good?

Once we have become aware of that inner sense of lack and separation, the invitation is that we do the inner work of moving ourselves into the feeling tone that All is Well, Now. Into the feeling tone that it is already done, and that it is happening now with ease and grace.

Manifestation is never a future thing but always a now thing.

And so it is not going to happen. It is happening now, and there is nothing we need to do other than to allow it to happen by joyfully and gratefully participating in the happening.

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Audio Treat

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Thank You…

Thank you, thank you, thank you.

I know I have said it before that this blog is for my personal benefit.

Writing these words, reading and re-reading them, is so powerful to me and really assists me in becoming more aware, in bringing clarity as to what is mine to do.

So thank you as always for joining me that we may walk this beautiful path together and forever grow, unfold, and expand.

I am truly grateful.

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Until we meet again, I invite us all to hold the world and all beings in a space of boundless peace and unconditional love.

I bless, bless, bless your day, and I bless, bless, bless your way, in the absolute knowing that All Is Well, that Something Wonderful is Always Happening, that Everything Is Working For Your Highest Good, and that Perfect Preparation And Unfolding Is Always Happening.

With much Love and many Blessings

Namaste 💜 💜✨✨